Weekend in The Crimson Permanent Assurance

Just hanging out at home. Tim is trying to repair broken water pipes at the Little House. I hate that house. I hate this house. I want to burn them both down and move. Anyway. I have tomorrow off thanks to Presidents Day. Glad about that.

I'm feeling kinda bitchy today though. I've sniped at Tim and the kids already. I'm trying to keep it under control but my aggravation level is kinda high. I sort of forced Tim into having sex with me this morning but it didn't last long. His legs were hurting. That might be why I'm snippy.

I am also feeling perpetually hungry. That doesn't do much for a good mood. I've gotten kindof used to feeling hungry but it still sucks. I can eat all the yogurt and mashed potatoes and pudding and ice cream that I want (except that we are out of ice cream of course) but since that's pretty much all I've eaten, along with soup, for over a week I don't really desire any of it. I'm sure I could figure out something else to eat, I'm just feeling very lazy. I was actually hoping to have lost more weight by this point, I lost about ten lbs, but it seems to have stalled. Probably because starvation is not the best way to lose weight. I doubt I've had more than 1500 calories a day since Friday before last, but my body seems determined to hold onto everything right now.

Jaden spent the night last night so him and Savino are all hyped up on each other. Tim is going to take them over to Chantal's when he goes back to the Little House today, so I can have a little bit of a break from them.

One thing I am totally disappointed over was that Tim and the kids have done nothing in the way of helping me clean the last week. I had hopes that they would be more considerate about helping out while I was recovering but it was just status quo. Tim was good about asking me if I needed anything but there was no cleaning or maintenance done on the house and he didn't help any extra with getting Savino ready for school or anything. Oh well. That's my family. One thing that Tim has continued to do that REALLY pisses me off is ask "what do you want for dinner" meaning what should he cook for dinner for him and the kids. It's just annoying because I won't be eating anything he's making, so why do I have to decide what he makes? It just seems inconsiderate, even though he doesn't mean it to be so. He just doesn't know what to cook. I hate that question in general anyway because I always have to figure out what to cook when I am cooking, so I feel like he should go state at the food we have and figure it out himself. Anyway.

This isn't a very positive entry! So, on the positive side, I am feeling very good personally. I love being able to smile and not be self conscious. I love my whiter teeth. I am in no pain really. I can't wait to be able to eat non-soft food. I miss fast food lol. The selection of soft fast food is non existant. Maybe I can con Tim into getting me some retried beans from the Mexican restaurant, that would be acceptable. And rice! That sounds good. Why is it that the only thing that is cheering me up is the thought of food lol.