32 nd birthday skip celebration? Camping in summer? in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

Due to me having no control of my life and being poor i shop online to never pay. Try on clothes only to put them back on hook after taking a picture. I tag things on pinterest about future plans and think dreams are fun. I cant afford that dream vacation but it doesnt stop me from looking up activities to do when i get there.

I often shop online for a child i never attempted to conceive because it reminds me how expensive children are. My husband complains about us using condoms i often point to him condoms are cheaper than diapers. I plan to have children eventually. In 20 days before my 32nd birthday yet i cant imagine affording to feed a child.

I have no plans for my birthday. I am so depressed i might just skip it this year. Every year i buy cake pizza decorations for everyone to pretend its another day so fuck it. On my 29th birthday i buried my friend Cassie Meador on my birthday. I guess her funeral will always come to my mind every year. Cassie died or an aneurysm pregnant with her 4th child. They both were buried on a date i will never forget. I wish Cassie lived to raise her children but God had other plans.

My boss cut me down to 8 hours a week trying to get me to quit in January after i sprang my ankle. He didnt anticipate a fight i didnt rebel i kept my mouth shut put in job applications. He tried get me to act a fool to fire me. I ignored his insults now i am back up to 20+ hours this week! I work from 6:30-10:30 pm today. Mom helping us pay bills thank god.

After Talan’s background check comes in he working for a paving crew $10 an hour. I cant wait. He will be in Charleston for 3 days for training after that he will be back in Beckley. I cant wait for him to start contributing to the house again.

I am thinking about how i want to go camping this summer. I have been looking for free camping places around my hometown. I might ask mom to borrow my deceased father camping supplies. Since dad isnt using it i hope to use it in his memory. Last summer i worked for Rescare. I hated that job. I wasnt treated well this summer i plan to make up for lost times. I might go camping by Summersville damn.. Maybe by Summersville Lake lighthouse. I need to find out cost for this. I need enertainment.

I got to shower go to my 4 hour shift. After work i am going put in job applications play on pinterest.