01/30/2019 in Fun times

Up at 5:30 am walked in the kitchen my stepdad was there and the talk went like this
SD- why are you up so early
Me- you said I was in trouble yesterday saying I oversleep and I was in trouble for not setting my alarm at 5:30
SD- you never get up till 6:30 that is your normal time it gives you an hour that’s enough of time
Me- you told me I had to get up at 5:30 now
SD- O I was just kidding
He comes in my room yesterday at 5:30 am and literally rolls me out of the bed on to the floor and yells at me for not getting up on time and today I’m being told I got up an hour early and there is no point. Then I see mom she is off today, so I know why but I don’t know what time to get up. I do know whatever time I do it will be wrong.
He plays mind games so much are I guess that is what you call it. he makes decisions and treats me like a servant, He makes me feel bad about myself. He uses Insults, name-calling, shaming, and public belittlement. His fav thing with me
Mom works 12 hours day, so she never sees anybody she works for my step-uncle waiting tables.
He threatens to report me to child services since he has ½ custody of me because we lived in a car and He saved us at the court date. (his words) mom worries about that I know because if we leave, he says I will have to say
He loves to make threatening moves, like smashing things in front of you, destroying things I saw him break dishes cut up clothes, shoes break phones.
But then we have our one day a week that mom is off, and it is the perfect family we have dinner out and then home to watch a movie as a loving family. Because mom may see the real him. But at least I get a night off.
Time for family night