11:11 New Year 11:11 in Current Events

I’ve been seeing those double digits again, 11:11 and 22:22. I had planned my whole week around going to the casino last night. Just for an hour and just by myself. I had a ballot that I wanted to enter for a cash prize and I had $10 of free play for my upcoming birthday. I only left a couple hundred up. I had it in my mind that I would win enough to buy out my car lol. I wanted to keep playing but it was so damn busy there. It was also -40 outside and I have a cold and my bed had been calling me all day. I was home by 10 pm.
Before I went to bed I packed my duffle bag with gym clothes because I really wanted to start the year off in the gym. I set my alarm for 6 am and when I woke up I was still under the weather. I might go later? Join that new year new me crowd there. I just don’t want to be that guy coughing all over the equipment and blowing my nose every few minutes. I just really really really want to do cardio. I miss running. I have not done any form of exercise in over a week which is not like me at all. My place is just too crowded with people home for the holidays. I have not done much of anything honestly. I’ve been completely lazy and enjoying the one and half weeks that I get to sleep in. I don’t even feel bad about it. Should I?
It’s a New Year and my birthday is in 5 days and it’s Capricorn season. This is my favourite time of year. I’m always full of ambition and I’m more productive and positive because of that. Last year that passion didn’t die off until May, which is a record. I want to keep it forever this time. Once I can breathe out of my nose again lol.
I have no action plan or direction for myself in 2019. I want to reflect on that today. 2018 was a good year. I thought it was going to be more groundbreaking. I thought 2018 was going to be MY year. It wasn’t but that’s on me. I need to work on developing better habits in 2019. I want to get back into my art. I want to get back into taking guitar lessons. I let myself get too tired and too full of excuses. I also want to return to social media at some point when I am confident that it will not become toxic for me. I am saving up for a very expensive camera so I can start taking awesome photos. When I started up a new Instagram at the beginning of last year I learned that I can take some pretty cool photos and videos. I enjoyed that too. I kind of want to make a bigger splash with that but my iPhone can only do so much.
Anyway, my niece just came to take over my computer. Happy New Year people xoxo