This morning.... in General musings

have probably spent an hour on the phone with him already, on and off. I had sent an email, teasingly, last night, asking how come I've never been able to make him crawl for me? He answered this morning with, "Crawl? I never crawled for anyone, not even my ex-wife", but he was on the phone already before I could even formulate a response. I had said to him yesterday, that we play with each other....saying or doing things, like a big chess game, to set the other one off or get the response you want...etc. Like, he is playing an old game of disparaging my husband, in his sly, serpent-in-the-Garden way, trying to make me dislike him, I suppose, and even tried the, "If he kicks you out, you head right up to me." I told him again how I have loved him (F, that is) since we were 23 years old and I have never stopped. He asked if I wanted him to stop talking to me, and I said no, because it doesn't matter if he is "here" or not, he is always "here" for me, even during the years we were apart. He said he is not good at saying the words, but that I must realize his feelings and he talked for awhile about how badly he had wanted us to have a child, and didn't that prove anything to me? He has made some sexual comments as well, but insists that can wait...that he WANTS to, but ..not right now. I know this is about "me" to some extent, and me getting a hold of myself. He said, "Tell Hubby to chill, if he plays this right and just goes about his normal life, nothing changes." And I suppose that should work for me as well, hmm?