yeah so. um. creep, radiohead. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

um so. on FB this guy Douglas basically. um. exploded. I wouldn’t call him a friend he’s more of one of those ‘people I know’/’bar regulars’. no he’s a nice guy.

so evidently at the bar recently he talked to this girl and the conversation had him not feeling good about himself. so on FB he in all caps [yeah that makes it look like you’re yelling] he’s like ‘I fukin hate myselff’.

I don’t know the details of what happened and I don’t need to know. but evidently it wasn’t good [well no]. no but see. seeing that was so damn heartbreaking. I’ve been there myself not........not in awhile. evan’s told me the same thing and he’s one of the most beautiful people I’ve ever known. omygod. and so I get it. [and the other part of that is I feel everything so. incredibly. deeply, so]. yeah there’s a reason ‘creep’ by radiohead [love radiohead] is one of my fave songs.

since the update was in all caps I put ‘oh god.......woww’ cause of how heartbreaking reading it was but then deleted it since i’m like ok if he’s that upset and angry. now’s not the time’. douglas seems better. and even if it was just a moment that moment. was gripping.

[wow for someone who’s not all that caring I have a lot of compassion sometimes].

ya know. sometimes the best thing to do for a guy is give him space. and i’m so sweet [like I don’t care sometimes but i’m sweet. it’s interesting] that i’m like ‘oh hon. here let me help. i’ll give you a hug i’ll hypothetically go and talk to you. here’s some tea’ or w/e. and sometimes guys are like ‘no. go the hell away’.

well yeah but if you’re angry you’d want someone to go the hell away regardless of.um. gender.

Last updated October 26, 2015