Momentum. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.

I was talking to Erik recently about my depression. He said one thing he used to do was remind himself in the morning that not being happy does not mean being depressed.

For now, the wave of darkness seems to have receded. And plenty of days I'm "just" not happy, which is far better than being depressed. Because on those days, I can actually acknowledge that things aren't necessarily bad, and I can remind myself that I just need to do nice things for myself to help myself feel better. Or acknowledge that there's really nothing I need to do, nothing I need to stress out over. Nothing to be anxious about. And THEN, I can finally just kinda zone out and relax.

It's a matter of momentum, I feel. The moment I sit down and zone out, I'm done. I need to kind of keep going and going and going, do all the things I want to do. Speaking of, I want to marinade pork chops for tonight and FINALLY take out all the trash. Feels like every single day I "set aside" for it, it's been either snowy or it's already nighttime. Oh shush, I'm slow at everything I do. Probably will want to continue cleaning after that... I'll aim for a 3 PM nap, eat leftover taco stuff at 4, hit the gym again around six. Yes. I got this.