PANIC!....in Michigan in A day in the life...

I'm sitting here unable to get a full breath, on the verge of tears. I was fine until about 20 minutes ago....then I went outside to smoke a cigarette and started thinking about this stupid lawsuit. Oh God...am I doing the right thing? What if AAA doesn't want to settle and insists on taking it to trial? What if they say all kinds of horrible things about me? What if it goes to trial and I lose? What if, what if, WHAT IF???

The short-term disability company called me today to ask me some questions to see if they're going to extend it for another month, even though my psychiatrist sent in the paperwork telling them it was necessary. Questions like...when's the last time you saw your doctor? What are you being treated for? Are you experiencing any symptoms? Are they interfering with your everyday life? In what way? And then I get an "Okay, I'll pass this information on to the analyst and you'll hear from him within the next couple of days." That's just great.....because the paperwork from my shrink was sent in LAST Tuesday, and I'm supposed to get paid tomorrow, but now it looks like that won't be happening. If they approve it, I'll get paid right away retroactively. If they don't....I don't even know what I'm going to do. THAT is the main reason for my current freak-out. What do I do? Call AAA and tell them I'll come back to work?

I know I need to calm down, pray, and be quiet and listen for God to speak to me....I know that. I just wish someone would tell me if I'm doing the right thing. I just wish I could take a deep breath. I'm starting to have thoughts of wanting to go to sleep and not wake up again....not good.

Please pray for me....please. I'm scared!