recurrance. and emotional impact. in 2018

so like i said in my. last entry. sure i was feeling great. ..........up untill about an hr. and 20 mins. ago. it’s now 2:30 so............at 1:20. and then i started to get nauseous and dizzy. and i’m still that way.

so right. recurrance. A reason not to stop taking meds even if the person’s feeling better. well antibiotics really. is recurrance. as in the infection would come back. [and then you know. set off the whole thing.]. well yeah. but if things aren’t better from the antibiotics by...........thurs. or next sun. then. see that’s the thing. that well that’s the time i’m supposed to stop taking them the dr. said 7 - 10 days. so you know. i’m already at risk for recurrance in a way. but. idinno i mean that hasn’t happened yet so. we’ll see.

so.........the emotional impact. of all this. well last wk. felt v. rushed. [yes probably bc it was.]. um. well right on Mon. i got the diagnosis or w/e it’s called. of the abscess. which apparently worsened by Wed. amazingly rapidly. even dr. nick s aid the word ‘worse’. as did dr. l. my dentist. right and that’s one of the things that propelled me. i don’t like how quickly things went, exactly. but w/ my ‘fear’, or w/e the word is. of more brain issues. and the infection and all that. i even wrote in my notes to my mom that something about. if i don’t get an appt. it will keep building momentum.
right so then. on Wed. prior to going to the. to see dr. nick i um. thought i was having some kindof procedure done. so i typed up evidently at some point. notes for him about what i think of needles and injections. well. so that appt. was just a consultation appt.
meanwhile. again like i said. there i was sitting there as it were w/ an infected tooth. area and no antibiotics untill fri.
so then on um. Thurs. i wrote and then typed up. on my mom’s comp. notes for dr. earp who i was seeing. fri.
and then on Fri. we just propelled right into everything. not many formalities or a few mins. of small talk. the usual checkup stuff weight height bp. blood draw done like we’ll just get right to it. uhm ok............not really my way but..............um. o..........k. she checked my joints, stregnth. finally got the antibiotics my mom & i went to the cvs at target picked up the bottle. i took some a few mins. after we got back to her. house.
so. right then. 10 mins. after i’d left her house. she calls and tells me to come back. as she thinks dr. i might have an opening. dr. iketa the endo guy. i found out when i was coming back, to her house that. well thankfully he doesn’t. er didn’t i mean. so that i’d actually have time to, prepare notes for him.
so i just. um yeah. yesterday however wasn’t rushed. no cause it was cold and icy out. [and yes i went out.]. it’s as i’ve taken to calling it concussion weather. yeah i did not rush. oh no.
so i just. yeah wow.