Add A Rawl in Friends With the Benedicts

Apparently there is an exception to my rules: when I am on Adderall. Hehe... So... today (minus the 1st half where I felt like my heart was still being pulled out my nostrils) turned out OK and even fun. Right now Disturbed is blaring and I am not analyzing where I am writing, I just am. But no, I won't make it habit. LOL. Unless some kind fellow ex ODian wants to supply me with Adderall and other opiates on a constant basis? No? OK. LMAO. Oooh Eminem. Gawd you know what I loooove? NY. As in the state. And my Mom's sister (so, my aunt lol) and her two daughters Amy and Hannah are there right now, having the time of their lives and documenting it all with pics via FB. I should be happy for them, but I'm not. All I can see is them there and me not there and it pisses me off!! They went to the WTC memorial yesterday and took a ferry to the Statue of Liberty and all I can think is that should be me! Do they really appreciate all these moments as I would? I think maybe, I hope so. My Aunt said she had to wear sunglasses on the ferry to hide her tears, so I guess there is that. Not many people know my love for NY, and I have never even been there. I love buildings. I have been to Chicago from riding on Greyhound but that's as close to a big city with tall buildings as I have gotten. Oh, and Memphis. The Peabody hotel that has ducks on the roof is my fav. I always visited it when travelling and passing thru on Greyhound. I rode GH more than I care to admit, from Iowa to FL and back again visiting home while living in my wife's home city of Iowa City. 40+ hours sitting in your own stink and filth. Lovely. And yes I showered before! Something about travelling that route just makes you stink OK?! lmao. So yea... if and when I ever get to NY... I will fall down on my knees. bawl my eyes out, and KISS the concrete. My bro's friend who used to live there said that was not a good thing to do, that the sidewalks are extremely dirty but I don't care! I will kiss them I swear!

I'd had an idea about something for us OD refugees who are members of the many FB groups. What about a trip? Like, a cruise or something. My Mom's graduating class did that for their 20th? 30th? reunion anniversary or whatever and it was a hit. What do yall think? But then I thought, but what if since it's my idea they expect me to organize it or whatever? There's no *way * I should be given that much responsibility! LOL BTW.. what the hell is up with this bold and italics? lmao. Oh my. Sorry if it doesn't come out right. OK... I'm gonna go cook a porkchop.

I love you all to pieces.