so fillings. and please no advice. and thank you. from. sept. 22nd. in 2018

delayed entry.

‘ so firstoff. please no advice thank you. i’m a little too. not feeling well [sorry i know that didn’t make sense] to go on about this. but be here and send. whatever yall have that would help. think i’m more then a little tired right now.

yeah so um. i had a filling on thurs. just one this time. i’ve been. i’ve not been great since but i’m not supposed to feel good. cause. anasthesia. yeah i’m queasy it comes and goes. currently 5:30 a.m. i’m not in pain though but that’ll come. ..........um.................so. the filling went ok. [well. it wasn’t bad.]. the first helper person was Claire i’ve had her before. at my last filling she’s cool. but then they switched as Claire was needed for something. else. so Barbara was brought in. dr. l my new cool dentist lady introduced us. which. i guess they’re supposed to but it helped and i appreciated it. the change didn’t bother me a whole lot as i was fairly drugged by that point. whereas usually i’m not great w/ change. oh but prior to meeting. Barbara i’d been sitting there for quite some time and it seemed like it took forever for the anesteshia to kick in. my god how long have i been sitting here? when it’s been all of 5 mins. or something. but that was a long 5 mins.

um yeah so Barbara. she was quiet Polish we think. she was new. which i was kindof ok w/. but it was a bit frustrating [i wasn’t that out of it] to. hear dr. l explain something to her more then once. or to tell her something more then once. Barbara was a little too nice. which is why i prefer Claire. but you know. that’s life.

yeah i like dr. l. she doesn’t talk down to me she doesn’t. you know use humour as a way to get across to me. there’s a time and a place for humour. she’s good. firm. she talks to me like an adult like we’re equals. she doesn’t use terms of endearment which. either they’re not supposed to or she’s not the kindof person. i don’t mind them but i’m ok w/ her, not using them. she also doesn’t pity me. and god do i hate being pitied. when she was telling me that i’m going to be sore she was v. matter of fact about it. like ‘you’re going to be sore. there’s really no way around it’. ok.

uhm.............so that night. the filling was at 2. we all went out to dinner w/ my uncle and his lady. it was ok to good. i didn’t hate it. but i was just tired physically physically. it is amazing how tired a person can be. and she my uncle’s lady is one of those people whose loud and high pitched and kindof comes at ya. quickly. in her approach if that makes sense. ya know i’ll approach people in this quiet mild way. like at stabucks ‘hi. i would like some chai and..........holdon...........’. i’m not one of those ‘hey how ya doin?’ types. anyway. so being around her didn’t help. and it’s not her fault i was tired no i know. i have a hard enough time being around her when things are ok my uncle’s lady. which lately they haven’t been. it has been a long 2 wks. only 2 wow. 2 fillings, mentor quitting thing, apparent discovery of head injury [thank god it’s not a concussion] and. now another filling. so um yeah. wow.

um idinno. i’ve been in pain. and um................queasy. mmm...........tired of course. ummm.................

so firstoff. please no advice thank you. i’m a little too. not feeling well [sorry i know that didn’t make sense] to go on about this. but be here and send. whatever yall have that would help. think i’m more then a little tired right now.

yeah so um. i had a filling on thurs. just one this time. i’ve been. i’ve not been great since but i’m not supposed to feel good. cause. anasthesia. yeah i’m queasy it comes and goes. currently 5:30 a.m. i’m not in pain though but that’ll come. ..........um.................so. the filling went ok. [well. it wasn’t bad.]. the first helper person was Claire i’ve had her before. at my last filling she’s cool. but then they switched as Claire was needed for something. else. so Barbara was brought in. dr. l my new cool dentist lady introduced us. which. i guess they’re supposed to but it helped and i appreciated it. the change didn’t bother me a whole lot as i was fairly drugged by that point. whereas usually i’m not great w/ change. oh but prior to meeting. Barbara i’d been sitting there for quite some time and it seemed like it took forever for the anesteshia to kick in. my god how long have i been sitting here? when it’s been all of 5 mins. or something. but that was a long 5 mins.

um yeah so Barbara. she was quiet Polish we think. she was new. which i was kindof ok w/. but it was a bit frustrating [i wasn’t that out of it] to. hear dr. l explain something to her more then once. or to tell her something more then once. Barbara was a little too nice. which is why i prefer Claire. but you know. that’s life.

yeah i like dr. l. she doesn’t talk down to me she doesn’t. you know use humour as a way to get across to me. there’s a time and a place for humour. she’s good. firm. she talks to me like an adult like we’re equals. she doesn’t use terms of endearment which. either they’re not supposed to or she’s not the kindof person. i don’t mind them but i’m ok w/ her, not using them. she also doesn’t pity me. and god do i hate being pitied. when she was telling me that i’m going to be sore she was v. matter of fact about it. like ‘you’re going to be sore. there’s really no way around it’. ok.

uhm.............so that night. the filling was at 2. we all went out to dinner w/ my uncle and his lady. it was ok to good. i didn’t hate it. but i was just tired physically physically. it is amazing how tired a person can be. and she my uncle’s lady is one of those people whose loud and high pitched and kindof comes at ya. quickly. in her approach if that makes sense. ya know i’ll approach people in this quiet mild way. like at stabucks ‘hi. i would like some chai and..........holdon...........’. i’m not one of those ‘hey how ya doin?’ types. anyway. so being around her didn’t help. and it’s not her fault i was tired no i know. i have a hard enough time being around her when things are ok my uncle’s lady. which lately they haven’t been. it has been a long 2 wks. only 2 wow. 2 fillings, mentor quitting thing, apparent discovery of head injury [thank god it’s not a concussion] and. now another filling. so um yeah. wow.

um idinno. i’ve been in pain. and um................queasy. mmm...........tired of course. ummm.................

the mentor thing idinno. i’m not done going on about it but i don’t really have anything new to say on it either.

head injury. well like i said thank god it’s not a concussion. i should be ok from both that and a filling by next.............sat. or so from what i’ve read. yeah i think i got it last sat. cause i was nauseaus for 3 days after. and then um took care of it tues. i won’t detail for maybe obvious reasons. the effects of it aren’t great [well no] but how it looks isn’t that bad. the bruises will fade. actually that’s the part i’m the most worried about. is if someone were to see them. yay hats. um i. so i forget what it’s actually called. but when i was at the bank yesterday that weird world closing thing happened. [i’m sorry. i’m having more trouble then usual thinking.]. no what i mean by that is. someone looks at a photograph right? it can be any photo any image that they think of. and so like. they zoom into part of the image maybe a table leg for example. yeah so in the bank that happened. for a minute that was weir.d weird.

this woman jennifer who i know from the bar. well we’re both on fb and said she’d seen my posts and asked if i wanted, to talk. even just that she asked. and i was i’m not feeling that great right now. filling. but yeah later’. i’ve always liked her and she thinks the same of me. so once i’ve recovered..........then. yeah.

time really. again this seems to be a theme as of late. for the third time. certain things help [drinking for one] but really just. time. love patience and time.

again. please no advice. that wouldn’t help me now. [or later actually. or at all. for further details please see prior entries.]. ‘