ooh. tender. and today. and getting out. from. sept. 18th. in 2018

and again this is a bit of a delayed entry:

‘ ooh. i’m tender. i looked in the mirror and well that explains it. i either bruised my temple a. 1 - 2 wks. ago from the looks of things or 2. this is a result of the/another setback. my myalgia’s acting up. [i think. it’s basically a med. term for muscle pain. i developed more of it after the TBI.].

ooh.

so. depression wise things were better today.

so getting out helped. well it helped w/ the depression. not so much physically. it was actually getting the motivation to do so that um. was hard. it was harder to push myself today then on. sat.

yeah physically i.........well i almost passed out twice today. i was in the store started getting warm and dizzy. got some bottled tea sat outside for a few mins. and had it. [i didn’t end up liking the tea.]. felt better went back in same thing got chai. and after that i decided not to go back in. for. for today. like yeah that’s enough. although luckily. they have chairs right by the um. ...........pharmacy if i ever feel like that again.
oh. btw. at starbucks i got chai and pumpkin bread. i wasn’t that hungry actually. i still have some. of the bread.

yeah so in between being at the store and starbucks i got, as i call it, ‘TMI sick’. i was outside and had napkins and um. did what needed to be done............and oddly enough. once it had. happened i actually felt better. i just hated it actually happening.

uh so. not a great day for me physically. but now i’m back. in my bed and somewhat more comfortable. ‘