so apparently i'm an inconvenience. and courage SU *no details of SU* sept. 18th in 2018

so again this is a bit of a delayed entry. one of these days i’ll post an actual entry. about um. the other stuff that’s happened since well june. [wow june that seems so far away. i like that song ‘so far away’. carole king. love her. anyway.]. yeah but for now. well.:

‘ or. how i’m doing.

apparently it’s really difficult for. a person to pick up the phone and call me and tell me. they were quitting. i’m sorry i didn’t realise i was an inconvenience. ‘might as well get it over w/’ like i was just an item on the to do list. and after all that time. what on earth would compel someone to do something like this? to put me through this? yeah great game. really. wow........

no exactly. this feels like a bad dream i want to wake up from. except that. i’m awake. so i go to sleep and that’s a reason why.

some people just don’t have the courage. to not do that. to not ghost someone. or the confidence. i’m not too sure what she was so afraid of. but the confidence thing makes sense. [or lack thereof actually.]. that part doesn’t really surprise me.

time ya know? it’s not what i want to hear but. yeah time. it lessens things. love patience and time. again. eric benet. ‘

Last updated October 17, 2018