fillings and um valerie thing. actually no doesn't mention the valerie thing. just fillings recovery thing. in 2018

um so. the 4th of last month i had 3 fillings. and then another one on the 20th.

oh yeah so for the one on the 4th. after i had a hell, of a time eating a raspberry. and i just grew increasingly frustrated. and i felt sad and stupid and clumsy. and it reminded me of recovering from the TBI. and so then. i took a break from eating and came back to it in a few hrs.
i was in a lot of pain for like. a wk. or so after. so i drank. well when am i not drinking? yeah the past 7 months. wow. no i mean moreso then usual. cause pills don’t work for me and i won’t take meds. no alcohol is. my medicine.
so the procedure. on the 4th went really well. it took 2 or 3 or maybe even 4, shots to numb me. i don’t mind needles i just don’t like the idea of something that big being in that small an area. in my gum/s.
i like my new dentist lady. i’ve actually never had, a dentist lady er i mean a lady who was a dentist. she’s cool she’s about my age. she’s good but firm and doesn’t talk down to me and doesn’t use humor as a way to get across to me.
so apparently. it’s not so much that i’m sensitive, to anasetshia as. that it impacts me the way it impacts most people.
on the i think it was the 5th. of last month about 24 hrs. later i was pretty damn irritable. and uncomfortable. well yeah.
oh i had a setback on the 8th apparently. of last month.
panic attack the 9th. fuk. last month.
i had really bad cramps that day too. lady stuff.
by the following day the 10th i felt better from my fillings.