Long-Ass Random Survey in Random Public Stuffs

Do you have any regrets?
No. I know that people will say that I’m lying. However, with where I am…who I am, at this moment…I would not change a thing. I can’t change other people, so there is no use in crying about their parts played. I decide whether they stay or go.

Do you have a deep, dark secret?
I believe everyone does. Most people don’t think it is because they don’t care, or they don’t tell themselves the truth. It also depends on what qualifies as a ”deep, dark secret”.

Have you ever hurt someone?
Yes. Physically, emotionally, and mentally. Sometimes willfully and maliciously. Other times, it was merely harming their ego and pride.

Have you ever self-harmed?
Yes. I recently relapsed, so the counter has reset.

How would you like to be remembered?
I will be remembered however people want to remember me. When I go, it really won’t matter. I have no control over people and their choices.

Who are the three most important people in your life?
Kids, Andrew, and best friends.

Was there one event that changed your life and the way you think?
Being told I may not make it to 35 was a massive wake-up call. I was 30. Cancer does not give a shit who you are.

Would you sacrifice everything for love?
I have. I have let go of my own wants to give my kids the best start in life because I love them.

Are you afraid of dying?
No. I have died once already.

Have you ever been abused?
Yes. In many ways.

Have you ever been in love?
Yes. Many times.

Are you happy with who you are?
WHO I am, for the most part. There are things that I am working on that I will always be working to improve.

Would you ever give up your life to save someone else’s?
I have, on so many different levels.

Have you changed at all in the last year?
Yes. Drastically. Change is inevitable, but I didn’t think I would be tossed down this route.

Would you ever settle for someone you didn’t feel was “the one”?
No. There are some things we have to settle for, but finding “the One” is worth waiting for and worth fighting for. “The One” may not be forever, and there are more than just one “the One” loves out there.

Is there someone you can tell everything to without fear of judgement?
Andrew. And I have done some fucked up shit.

Are you pursuing your dreams?
Currently healing the best I can. Waiting to see my neurologist to see what the damage is.

Do actions speak louder than words?
Yes. Absolutely. Its the interpretations that tend to fuck people up.

Is there something you would never do?
Of course. Quite a few of those “somethings”, some of which are common sense.

What makes you uncomfortable?
People with clingy behaviour.

Who knows more about you than anyone else?
Andrew. We have known each other since I was 10. We have lived through life together. He has told me that he loves me no matter what.

Are you pro life or pro choice?
Pro-choice. Not my body, not my business.

Where was your last vacation?
Mmm. Actual REAL vaykay was a couple years ago to Kansas City.

What was your last argument about and who with?
My daughter and her constant posting about her anxiety. I told her she needed to start getting herself together and start helping herself because she turns 18 in November. Her dad and I will not always be around and she needs to learn how to manage her issue.

Are you happy with the choices you’ve made?
Satisfied is more like it. I have made some of the hardest decisions any person would find difficult.

Are you excited for anything?
Sleep. When I can.

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
No. I don’t hate. It requires too much effort.

You’re stuck in an elevator with one of your worst enemies, what do you do?
Laugh and watch them freak out.

Are you mad at someone right now?
No. Again, requires too much energy.

Is something bothering you?
Yes. A lot of things. Right now, a stomach bug. I have no energy beyond that.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
No. I felt like shit. I still feel crappy.

Have you ever been cheated on?
Yes. A few times. It doesn’t surprise me anymore.

Are you hard to please?
No. I don’t think so. I have standards and such, but overall, I think I am pretty easy to keep happy.

How are you feeling right now?
Like shit. Stomach bugs suck balls.

Do you wish you had the chance to go back in time and change something now?
No. Changing one things could cause a chain reaction. I am okay with things as they are.

Can you honestly say that you love yourself?
Yes. I have worked hard to get here. And I am going to keep working on myself.

Do you hide your feelings or show them?
Hide them, usually. Its easiest to avoid drama that way.

What do you always take with you?
Phone. Hair tie. That is about it.

Do you think relationships are hard?
Yes. Its hard to find a semblance of balance. Some people lose themselves to their partner. Some forget they have a partner.

Do you think you’d have what it takes to shoot someone if you had to protect yourself?
Yes. Without question. If it comes down to me or you, I will win and walk away.

When you can tell that someone’s lying, do you call them out on it?
I will listen to them as long as I can before I just laugh at them and ask why they’re talking shit. Oy. People.

Have you ever hallucinated?
Yes. I had pneumonia, which came with a temp of 104.7 and yeah…it was bad.

Do you regret something you did yesterday?
Negative. Regret eats a person, so I just shrug my shoulders, work through it, and keep going.

How many hours did you sleep last night?
5. Was worried about seeing my neurologist.

Is something bothering you right now?
Yes. The pain in my neck. I got four stabbed four times in the head, one in the neck, and one in the shoulder.

In the past week have you felt sad?
Yes.

Has someone disappointed you recently?
My mom.

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Yes. Always.

If you could pack up and move, would you?
YES!!!! Definitely.