Space is the place in The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.

I talked to Golnar for a few hours tonight and that was really nice because she’s been out of town for the last two weeks…and I’ve been missing her a ton.

People always ask why we don’t just date…but the truth of the matter is that I’m a poison person, as we’ve already discussed, and she’s not…and on top of that, I end up losing everyone that I date, and I don’t want to lose her, so it’s easier if we just don’t.

I really think I might never date anyone ever again…and that’s okay with me.

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I thought I had more to write about, but it turns out…I don’t.

I think I need to go ride my bike now, even though it’s 10:41 PM.

That’s a fine time to ride your bike if you’re the type of person who doesn’t sleep a normal schedule.

I just wish I had someone to talk to instead of listening to music.
Music doesn’t help me feel like there’s anyone there.
Music just makes me feel alone.
Maybe I’ll listen to a podcast…that’s actually not a bad idea.
I’ve been wanting to listen to the Elon Musk episode of the Joe Rogan podcast anyway…so maybe I’ll just do that.

Hmmm…maybe coming on here before my bike ride was a good idea after all.

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Life is so meaningless.

I mean, I always end these things with “I love you”
but who are you?
Does that even make sense?
I mean…WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!?!?!?!?!
and why do I love you?
And what is this going to accomplish?

Sometimes I don’t think you even exist.

Can you even prove me wrong?

Please…please please....please....please prove me wrong.
-Dane