Sexy?, instagram model?, pole dance, fix truck in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

I am 31 years old still dont know how to be sexy. Everytime i try to wear lingerie either he isnt interested or complains wants to tear it off because it is in his way. Whats the point buying anything nice if he is going to destroy it? He says he rather me be nude. When i try that he complains i am way of his game.

He wants me to pose in little clothing on instagram to prove i am “attractive.” He says Sonnet gets paid for her nudes i should do the same. Excuse me for feeling nudity is saved for your partner not paraded around like Lady Godiva on the internet. Sonnet is beautiful i however do not feel the same about me.

I do not feel posting pictures online like that is hardly beneficial or if found helps me get or keep a job.

I am interesting in boudoir pictures but they are expensive. I would never show them to another soul i have no idea how to look sexy!

I am interesting to learning pole dancing to lose weight. I am 193 pounds. I think climbing pole will tone and strengthen my muscles that I can lose weight. I dont plan to do it professionally mainly to lose weight!

I got screamed at today for staying home trying to clean my house instead working on my truck. I have a terrible migraine but mom doesnt care. She wants her van back. I understand but all i wanted was rest. I just wanted to clean my house. My wants do not matter as long as i fix the truck so she can get her van. I will try to fix truck tomorrow. I wish my head will quit hurting.

At what age van i quit being sexy? I am kind of looking forward to living in night gowns watching my soaps having lots od cats and taking naps!