Tragic? in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018

I don’t know if this is tragic or wise. But whenever I get an impulse to share something on Facebook, I think better of it and come here to Prosebox instead. On Facebook… that stuff could easily be used against me by anyone that would want my political downfall. The same is true of this place as well, but at least on Prosebox I have a modicum of plausible deniability.

(1) CK
Many of my friends have been absolutely ragging on the Kapernick (sp?) thing. Spreading the stupidest, least insightful memes you can imagine. One even said “Fuck this guy for saying the American Flag oppresses Black People.” It’s like… I really wanted to comment how that characterization of the protest was the stupidest, most offensive mis-characterization someone could possibly come up with. But I didn’t. Because Facebook. AND I live, work, and uphold the law in Steve King Country. So yeah… while I want to shout from the rooftops what I know to be right… it isn’t a stretch of the imagination to consider that could literally cost me everything. And I get that the heroes in this world are the ones who fought for what is right EVEN THOUGH it could cost them everything but… how many battles am I supposed to wage? I’m trying to fight for justice in my own way… making sure that “wealthy and connected” doesn’t mean “no charges”… making sure that “black and young” doesn’t mean “presumed guilty”. I’m fighting for justice and peace and understanding. AND YET.... I still stay silent in moments where I know the right thing to do is to speak up. I honestly don’t know how to handle that.

(2) SAO
I’m rewatching Sword Art Online. The firewall discrepancies that I still can’t seem to fix prevent me from doing a LOT of things (like fucking check e-mail) but I still have occasional access to Facebook, Prosebox, Amazon, Netflix, Youtube, and Porn. But not google. ?!?!?!?!?! Yeah, I don’t understand it either, really. BUT… I’m watching Sword Art Online again because it is something that I’ve seen before, enjoyed, and if/when shit fucks up and it takes 30 minutes before Netflix lets me watch an episode… I’m not missing anything. (Subnote Below).

The thing is… Sword Art Online is supposed to be a nightmare world. People locked in an MMORPG that will kill them if they try to leave and kill them if they lose all of their HP. It is supposed to be a terrible thing.

And yet… I genuinely think I’d prefer it. I was never very good at WoW or SWTOR… but I enjoyed them. And even if it killed me… the straight forward nature of the whole thing? That would be a joyous thing. PCs, NPCs, and Enemies. Simple. Maybe I’d stay stuck in Level 1 and slowly find myself turning more and more into an NPC but still? Sometimes… I really think it sounds preferable.

((From the subnote above: I don’t have evidence to say “Fucking anti-net neutrality bullshit” but Wife would be quick to say it. And she may be right. The idea that each company can now fuck any website based on profits? Still furious that this country thought that was an acceptable idea. I fucking hate what the Trump Administration and the 2012-Present GOP have done.)