Struggling in Torridaussity Two

I’m struggling with a lot of things right now. I think I’m over my ex and then out of no where I’m overwhelmingly upset and cry over him. My brother has been living with me 6 weeks now and I need my space back, my routine, my life. My work schedule has been insane and now that school is back in session it’s worse. My mom is getting worse healthwise. I’m a mess. Crying over nothing and everything. In trying to get over my ex i started getting back into dating was talking to a guy for two months we had a great date, he said he thought he loved me and the next week just disappeared. The trend in my pathetic love life, I’m not good enough yet again. I’m sorry this is so negative I’ve tried to vent in real life and am tired of hearing the same shit over and over as if their responses are on auto play. They arw only listening superficially. I told my friends I was feeling down…i get you shouldnt feel that way you’re great. I say i should feel that way Im allowed to feel that way. What I need is a friend to say come over we’ll eat cookie dough and you can cry on my shoulder as long as you need till we can get you feeling better.
There is more to say, but I’m typing this after 1 am on my phone in bed. Thank you for being a place I can vent.