the other thing i've been doing besides drinking. part of the timeline thingy. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

Yeah so back in Sept. I started writing. like really writing. in notebooks. about my past and the alcoholism and abuse and my friend. and about Sage/Pat and a bit about Karlye too.

Now I'm to the point where I'm connecting everything. actually I haven't started yet. um.

So I took a break Oct. - Jan. and I'm taking a break this month since I'm moving by April and all. and then once I'm settled I'll start back up again.

yeah. it's been really hard. there's a reason I was running for so long. And also. I don't think I would've been as ready as I am now.