Work troubles in Just me

Work, oh my god work. While it may be my drug of choice to avoid anything emotional it is killing me this year.

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New class, new kids and not one but TWO new teachers. One has only been teaching for 2 years and has come back from a year off to have a baby. The other has been in Australia for 20 years from china and is still hard to understand at times. Both are sweet and nice. BUT sweet and nice doesn't cut it with two of our kids. We have a class of 7, our school has grown a LOT this year and classes are bigger, 7 was a lot last year and unusual, this year it's the norm. But 7 with 3 that need ONE on one attention is HARD. One is VERY high needs behaviourally and has had one on one attention his whole schooling life and can't and WON'T do anything alone. He is pretty high up on the spectrum, doesn't talk (has never been made too, he could). The teachers do totally different programs. Yeah you can imagine (if you know anything about Autism) how well that goes for me with him. BOTH teachers have left me to deal with him, haven't done a thing (and I mean see him doing something like standing on a chair that spins (round no back) and said NOTHING, yes that really happened) to help, they leave it all to me. I was crying Thursday night because at that point we only had six kids and I was barely coping and was told that day we'd be getting another one. Three days into work and I was crying and just ready to throw it all in. Friday I went to work with a different attitude (one of caring a lot less) and let the teacher/s deal with him, if THEY don't make him do anything right why should I bother. As bad as it sounds it's not my job, they are the teacher.

I am still beyond frustrated and on wednesday went to the department leader and said to her I think he would do better in a class with ONE teacher because his behaviour is escalating and he's just not coping because nothing is the same on the days the different teachers are there. And also the new boy we got HATES loud noises, and I think he could get a bit violent, and of course the really hard kid does the whole clapping (constantly) and making a LOUD noise over and over again. The department leader said that was all good to know and she'd see how things went on Thursday to see if the school would qualify for another teacher and teacher aide as day eight of school is important to us and numbers of kids and what not.

And today the department leader came into see the teacher I have 3 days a week asking her how the other teacher and her working the program and if she thought it'd be helpful to have both of them have a meeting together to get some things worked out.

And then of course there's the fact of how much my arm is hurting me from all the lifting of this kid I've had to do (the teacher wouldn't help). Fun times to be had

I miss loving my job. The right teacher makes a big difference.

Here's hoping some things will change in the next week or two or else I don't know if i'll apply for permanency that is coming up and I was told too by the business services manager. Yes it really is that bad.

I'm just treading water right now, some days i'm drowning but it's not good enough. I have to work it out, snap out of it, stop caring or something because i'm failing as a friend and at anything right now