well. i'm not handling this well/they say the neon lights are bright on broadway, in 2017. got it.

oh god........i didn’t even....... no that’s not entirely true. i knew. my mom’s cousin. he was a good guy. gay straight regardless he was. a good guy. and i’m just. i’m so. angry about it even though. i shouldn’t be. maybe? he was. so nice and he. got HIV and i feel so bad being angry w/ him. and it’s not his fault he just. wanted to enjoy that basic human need that we all have. and, unfortunately.........he got HIV. and i just.......i............it’s russian roulette ya know we never know when any of us are going to go. for some. more then others.

why should i be angry w/ someone from enjoying something and then getting sick from it. he was part of this organisation that helped people like him.

i don’t want to have sex bc. i’m terrified to get a STI. it’s more psychological at this point. then um anything else.

they say the neon lights are bright on broadway........it’s about not giving up really. that song. and he. he............ok. he taught us that. despite his troubles. he didn’t. um........ and i lost my train of thought there. and. wow.

well. i’m. not handling this well.