Distortion in Every day scata

BABYMETAL

Yeah, the band name is in all caps. I’m not yelling about it lol

Had my massage, and mmm it was nice. I know I’m going to hurt like hell in a little while. Actually I’m starting to feel the fibro “what the hell did you do to me?” pain in my arms. For some reason my arms are the first to be affected by anything. Storms, stress, etc.

She’s good. And it’s nice to tell someone that you’re an empath and not get the “you’re a fucking weirdo” look. She said she could tell, and though I try to shield myself I have chinks in my armor that I need to work on.

She also asked if I’m one to do everything by myself, or ask for help. Well, you know me. I do everything myself (the physical and mental part of stuff, not the money type stuff). She told me to stop that. Well, in a nicer way. She said that is one of the reasons my left side is all messed up. I’m never receiving anything, I’m always giving (left is the receiving hand).

The problem with that is I have no idea how to do that. I never have. I’m a giver. I’m the shoulder to cry on. I internalize everything that I need help with. I push through the pain to do things that need to be done. It’s the way I’m made. ::shrug::

Again, something to work on, even though I haven’t got a clue how.

Well, I think I’m going to go for now. I may work on a vlog later. Not sure. Depends on how I feel :)

See ya.