does it really matter what we call it? *Sexuality. in 2017. got it.

‘on both sides’ ‘on the fence’ bi ‘in the closet but the door’s open’. does it really matter what it’s known as? so long as it’s known as something? like. the eskimos for example. have a lot of words for ‘snow’. and a lot of people just call it ‘snow’. either way it’s still the same thing. snow.

i think. people attach their own. definitions to words beyond just what the dictionary tells us. and they attach depth and meaning to those words.

To me. idinno. for me personally. yes it does matter. i think. if i can at some point say what the words is that describes my sexuality. and be ok w/ that. then I can go ‘yeah I’m ‘this’ and this is what it means’. i don’t think things are just on the surface. I don’t think there are, as they’re called, ‘fake fronts’. [this is an actual thing. there’s somewhere in uh. disney [world] at a park there where. there are fake store fronts but there aren’t. physical stores that exist.]. I don’t think the fake front is just ‘oh look it’s a door made out of cardboard’.

No it’s. someone opens the door or goes swimming. and then there’s the depth and the meaning. if this is making sense.

for the longest time. i wouldn’t use the word ‘rape’ to describe well. my rape. i would say ‘it’ or ‘i was hurt’ or ‘hurt’ or ‘what happened to me’. and then. i got tired of the pronouns. of not really attaching the word to the fake front of well ‘it’. cause it the rape wasn’t ‘it’ anymore. it wasn’t this fake front this fake thing that didn’t exist. no cause it did exist and it did happen and it was deep and meaningful. and 3d. it was this physical tangible thing.

i’m one of those people who. you know labels things sometimes. and it’s funny cause i have trouble w/ the words for things sometimes. i’m better w/ describng the object. er well i’m a visual thinker. like i could draw a door and then people might know ‘oh ok so she’s talking about a door’. but whether it be visual or vebral. verbal* rather. still a door.

i don’t know.’