Thursday and Early in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018

I’m not sure if this is a direct track but… despite rough sleep last night (thank you Tiger Balm for making my leg shut up long enough to sleep at all) I woke up around 6 this morning. Apparently, that was due to a combination of Wife trying to get me to stop snoring and her alarm going off. But awake at 6 I was. And more than anything, strangely, I was famished. Just… super hungry.

So I made a sandwich, ate it, sat on the couch (wrapping myself in a blanket) aaaaaaand fell asleep again, lol. For quite a while. So then the challenge was on. HOW much could I still get done today? (Though I will admit… the blanket and extra sleep REALLY helped my legs!)

Step One: Keep my computer from dying, lol. I took it over to the couch with me and had it open when I fell asleep so… woke up and “10% battery left.” Literally the moment I plug it in… The Chinese Firm Calls. Eye Twitch. I was asked, before I left, to contact a New York attorney and ask them for a client’s criminal record. I did so, several times, and briefed Chinese Boss on it often. To the point where, if someone called from “XandY Law firm”… she would have known it was about that client. To the point where, if someone called identifying themselves as Attorney X, she would have known it was about that client. To the point where, if any New York attorney called to talk to me… she would have known it was about that client. Well, NY called and Chinese Boss had no idea who it was, why they would be calling… pretty much no idea about anything. (Sarcasm Font Engaged) So glad I made sure to do the work on that case that you obviously value! (Sarcasm Font Disengaged). I mean… I’m not a monster or an asshole. They have lots of different cases that they are working on and (seriously seriously) Chinese Names can be hard to keep straight even for Chinese Speakers. BUT that is why I went out of my way to try to make it as easy and simple as possible. Which clearly failed or was never consulted.

Next up was trying to get my old work laptop to recognize, sync, and cooperate with my old printer. Finding the software was quick and easy. Downloading it took time. In that time, my mind was left to wander and consider some things from recently. Some unfortunate observations, if you will. (1) I am not asexual by any stretch of the imagination; (2) If I was being brutally honest with no filter, I can say that I would probably want sex every day at least once if not more; (3) Marriage, as a general concern, seemed that it would come with an average of sex every week; (4) obviously, that is not my marriage by any conceivable metric; (5) thinking about Wife without my sexual needs, specifically in “how would you feel about her if you were asexual has led to some interesting perspective… I enjoy her face, I like her eyes, her breasts are acceptable… but rarely do I honestly find her attractive anymore; (6) there was a specific moment last night, though, where I did find her genuinely attractive and enticing. She was coming to bed, naked but for underwear, and doing a little dance. That was it. Maybe it was because the dancing reminded me of when she was younger and less hateful and bitter… maybe it was because she was wearing a new pair of boy-cut underwear instead of her constant and repeated choice of ratty 8 year old granny panties… but something just… made her look good again. Which is when I realized that if that moment made me think “she looks good” then by logical deduction, I haven’t been thinking that she looks good otherwise. Just… something I realized.

Printer started working and I printed out some activities from my Therapist. One of the things she wants me to do sounds a bit like deeply introspective journaling… so you know it’ll wind up on here, lol.

Then… license plate drama. Actually… easy as 3.1415926535. Yes that was a nerd joke. No I won’t apologize for it! :p

So all that remained on THE LIST was
(1) Swim Workout
(2) Affix DL to car… which Wife really wants to do since she loves any excuse to use power tools
(3) 4:00 Insurance meeting
(4) Buy alcohol (for home and MBFITWW)

And that’s all that must be done today. But seeing as Sunday is April 15 and I’ve only published 1 of 10 Draft Entries… I don’t think I’ll be making my goal deadline on that. Even still, I’d like to get at least one more out there. Because (and this is true) the next idea I want to write? I wrote my “Idea for a story” entry on May 13, 2016. In fact, 6 of the remaining 9 ideas were jotted in 2016. It is far past time to bring them to life or kill them entirely.

BUT the timing works out on that.

Friday is supposed to be a writing day and an exercise day before I drive to my friend’s place. And my friend and I will be binge watching Anime… some of which will be dramatic and awesome, some of which will be humorous and sweet, and some of which is absolutely certain to give me an erection. Seriously… this kid has Anime coming out of his ears and we usually hit the major groups… Action, Slice of Life, Comedy, Ecchi… typically of a harem nature.

Actually, I wanted to speak to that for a moment. One of the really funny things between my friend and I when we watch Harem Anime… wait, I should define that before people get the wrong idea.
The Harem Genre Wikipedia definition is “In anime and manga where an emphasis on polygamous or love triangle relationships characterized by a protagonist surrounded amorously by three or more members of either the same and/or opposing gender, sex, and/or love interest.” An example I particularly liked was Sekirei. On the surface this anime could be seen as a few different things. Largely, it centers on a twisted and brutal contest pitting super powered women against each other. However, the super powers can only be “unlocked” if their chosen/selected person gives them permission (through a kiss). I liked this show largely because there were so many different characters to get to know, to like, to see how they interact… and I enjoy that. For me, the entertainment of watching people interact is when it is a diverse group (diverse in personality or other ways).

There are other Anime shows that allow the viewer to see many different people interacting, of course, that are not Harem. An interesting example is “Shikabane Hime, Corpse Princess.” I’ve heard argument that this could be considered harem due to the large number of female heroes, but as they are not amorously connected to a single protagonist, it does not count as Harem. However, there are dozens of super powered females that interact with one another. So… it is no surprise I enjoyed this one as well. lol

Back to my original point, though. Whenever MBFITWW and I watch Anime with multiple female protagonists (be it Harem or Not, but usually harem) we end up getting into a playful argument. You see, I watch those shows and find myself being drawn uniquely to one or a few of the characters. For example, in Rosario Vampire, I’d want Mizore Shirayuki out of the main student list… Ririko Kagome out of the teacher list… and Tsurara Shirayuki and Ageha Kurono out of the remaining list of characters. So for an anime filled to bursting with attractive women, I easily selected 4.
Mizore Shirayuki
Ririko Kagome (Teacher Dress)
Ririko Kagome (Villain Dress)
Tsurara Shirayuki
Ageha Kurono

MBFITWW usually gets (not seriously) incredulous while we’re watching a new Harem Anime and I point out my “favorites.” Apparently, I’m “doing it wrong.” The point isn’t to have ones you like best but to appreciate the entire group. In other words, and he’s right, he sees it that if the both of us were placed into a Harem Anime… he would be like most protagonists… not selecting, trying to enjoy being the center of a harem for as long as possible. Whereas I, even if I continued the poly-amorous nature, would certainly winnow down. Then again, poor lad hasn’t really ever had a serious girlfriend so I’m afraid his expectations of dealing with multiple women may be a tad incomplete. I wouldn’t necessarily reject multiple women, but I’m still me… if I can’t make each woman feel like they matter? If I can’t listen to them when they need me, or spend quality time, or… y’know… relationship stuff… than I pass. Simple as that.

For example… my favorite characters in “High School of the Dead” are Saeko Busujima and Rika Minami. This is a super fan-servicey anime with many women to appreciate. Some would say I’m an idiot for having so steadfast a specific two that I prefer best. Especially, they may say, as the two I selected aren’t even “the smartest” or “the nicest” or “have the biggest breasts.” And I would say, “I would never pick someone on those qualities. I like these characters. Plus, they represent my two favorite fighting styles. Swords and Snipers.”
Saeko Busujima
Rika Minami

Last one: High School DxD. A friend of mine once said, “You watched that? Why not just rent porn, it’d be easier.” But despite the show’s overindulgence in “Look, boobs!” I do like the world they created, the characters, and the stories. So I like it for far more than the “Look, boobs!” That being said, MBFITWW’s jaw hit the floor when I selected one individual out of the entire show. The whole show has more beautiful and super powered female characters than you could name but I saw Akeno Himejima, and that was it. True, she is called the Priestess of Pain… but she is a very attractive, very complicated, and at times very fragile character. It was easy for me to say, “Nope. This one. She is my favorite in the whole series. This one, definitely.”

Now, all of that being said… I am a man… and I am a man of very limited sexual experience. Further, I am a man who gains great sexual stimulation and satisfaction based on the female’s enjoyment. So… I am still (at least) curious about a MFF threeway. Strangely, I honestly wouldn’t want my wife as one of the F. Firstly, because she’d have zero interest and secondly, because I know she wouldn’t handle it well. If I was bringing more pleasure to the other F or (more likely) was gaining more pleasure from the other F… Wife would be distraught and we’d never have sex again.

So I suppose none of that last bit really had much to do with anything other than to tell you all a little about myself in a strange, convoluted way. But if you picked up the meaning, good on you. You understand me a little better than. :)

Last updated April 12, 2018