Fading in Current Events

I had everything under control until I relapsed with my anxiety and depression. It started a couple weeks when everything blew up in my face at work. I had the business sitting pretty, we were the hot topic and the team to beat. Things started to unravel a bit and just when I was absolutely vulnerable we got audited. I got audited. The whole business is a reflection of my leadership and I botched it. Now we’re still the hot topic because nobody has ever had a surprise audit in the evening before. Nobody had one last that long. Nobody had an inspection so insanely thorough. All locations are shook and I feel like we are the laughing stock again. I am so embarrassed. I have been so speechless. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep… I had an episode or two where I collapsed from something, exhaustion? Starvation? I started running again and thank the Gaylord I can cook again, post again, paint again, sleep again etc.
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If I could just stop feeling so sad when I’m acting happy and healthy that would be great. I’ll get there.