about 5 mins. ago........ in 2017. got it.

about 5 mins. ago. I had some of something that wasn’t um alcohol. i’m not proud of it but i feel better. well i feel calmer cause giving in just feels so.......damn.......good. omygod.

i couldn’t even make it 4 days stone cold sober. sorry, everyone who was hoping for that. hey I made it 2 days and that’s........

^ actually this was at 1:20 a.m. and it’s now 6. so obviously a little more then 5 mins. ago
-the ‘something’ was um Listerine. cause yes. 4.

for those who don’t know. which is um probably most people. Over the yrs. from time to time i’ve um. abused substances pills, mouthwash, nutmeg [actually this was when I was 23, 24 and prior to my having used weed. yeah i don’t recommend doing nutmeg. it’s not worth it. the hangover’s a bitch] um. and those starbucks refresher things. well actually that was in conjunction w/ pills when I was 25, 26.
niacin..........yeah.

i’m not really proud of all that and i don’t think i’m all that ready to talk about it or detail it but there it is. so yeah now people know. i’ve put it out there.