maybe that's it. well. another part of it. valerie thing. in 2018

at the risk of offending probably. a lot of people here.......

So the other day we were talking and valerie told me one of her daughters goes to this christian school place. i don’t remember the name but it had the word ‘christian’ in it. And then Valerie told me something about how they don’t go to church ‘but we believe’. she didn’t say what they believed in, exactly just that they do.
And that’s the problem I have w/ people who are religious. well people who are Christian anyway. W/ a lot of them. they don’t drink they don’t swear it’s like they’ve never done anything wrong in their lives. they’re too perfect. like swearing is like the worst thing they can do omygod. However this isn’t true of all of them. they’re not real. [well ok they’re real in that they exist.]. it’s like they’re all afraid to be real. and to swear and. w/e.
I actually. and i’ve never told her this. but I actually encourage, valerie and people like that to swear. and no not use substitute swear words cause that comes off as old fashioned and like they’re too perfect to do anything bad anything real. as long as people aren’t swearing at me i really don’t care. Now I won’t swear around children. but i sure as hell won’t use substitute swear words either.
So anyway. yeah that’s the problem I have w/ a lot of people are religious.
i say ‘omygod’ a lot cause well. i’m not religious so. or i’ll say ‘oh wow’. but i don’t use substitutes for ‘omygod’. and i don’t like when people do.
although. maybe it’s a guy vs. lady thing. cause Pat was Christian [actually so was my ex but my ex was an abusive jerk and no not bc of that.]. yes but Pat evidently. was also an alcoholic. apparently. No but that’s exactly what I’m talking about. is that’s one of things that made him real.
I can’t imagine Valerie ever doing anything like that. no she’s too perfect to ever. like drink that much. [ok so that sounds terrible. I know how bad alcoholism is cause well I drank heavily for 2 yrs. and I still go through withdrawl from time to time] or I can’t imagine her. ever cheating on someone. [yes i’ve cheated on my ex. when we were together although. people have different definitions of cheating so.]. i’ve actually. thought of asking her, if she’s ever cheated on anyone but then she’d probably ask me the same thing. and I don’t talk about my ex a whole lot. yeah um when i told her I hadn’t dated in quite some time she went ‘when you’re ready’. well my ex as i’ve said was abusive so........ and actually interestingly enough that’s not the ‘real’ reason i’m not dating right now. i mean she’s not wrong but it’s not as simple as just. when i’m ready. and also even if she had/has cheated on someone. and she told me so. i’d find that very hard to believe.
I feel like. I can’t swear around her cause she doesn’t swear around me. she’s kindof. well actually she’s kindof like Ned Flanders on ‘the simpsons’ except she’s not my neighbor. thank god. yes that’s exactly who. like I can’t be who I am. and I don’t think that’s good.
And on the topic of religion. I wasn’t raised religious didn’t go to church. I’m a good person I’ve been told but a person doesn’t have to be religious to be a good person.
so more of the same kindof. w/ a bit of religion talk thrown in.

Last updated July 16, 2018