Denial in Riverdale

Betraying myself

By liking you

Because i really dont

So empty

Craving a rush

Even if the love is fake

Its too painful

Need to run away

Need to fuck you over

Pleading begging

Wanting something

Even if its fake

All an illusion

It hurts

But it hurts too much

To face the reality

That i have no one

That u cannot connect with me

It hurts too much

Take away the pain

Drink more

So it all stays the same

I need you

But don't  want you

I want you but i dont need you

I really dont need or want you at all

But it hurts too much

So much pain

Left with nothing

All alone

Trying to break through

Have faith

Close my eyes

Relax into the unknown

Could it be a good thing?

Scared. So scared.

Confused.

Could it all be alright without you?