love on the brain./brain in 2017. got it.

actually no. i don’t have love on the brain. cause i’m not in it. [although now i do cause that song was mentioned.].

med stuff. [cause. what else?]

um ok. so. i think. and i’m not entirely clear on this. but i think. that the fact that i sometimes see words. when someone says. them might have to do w/ a difference in my...........optic? or occipital. thing. [that’s helpful isn’t it. it starts w/ ‘o’.]. [also i’m a visual thinker anyway so.].

um. oh wow. one step forward two steps back. yeah i’m not doing great. 5 wks. in and...... the furniture decided to collide w/ me or i w/ it. thanks. um so after that. um happened i. i lost consciousness for a sec and then. that feeling of. ‘something just came over me’. and i think there was pain but i don’t remember the pain too clearly. this was all in my bedroom btw.
and then like. i closed the drawer cause 1 i was done and b what’d just happened. this was mon. morning early mon. morning.
i must’ve. gone back to my bed although i don’t remember that............and. oh i remember at some point later i got TMI sick a few times. yeah no i didn’t like that. uhm. not particularly violent. oh i was dizzy when i got up. from being on the floor by the dresser.
i slept on mon.

i keep getting these headaches. [again.]. and i have musc. skel. pain. which is really uncomfortable. last night at times when i moved it hurt. my whole body. i was outside waiting. i could not get comfortable.
derealisation, confusion, not entirely knowing who people/things places are. yes i’m back here again. i’ll have some vague recollection of who people are/what places are. i just feel so like. behind. and it’s sad. again.

this is either a setback or..............or something more.
oh and i’m panick-y so there’s that.
um. there are probably more.
oh the vertigo’s back. sens. to. just sensitivity.