i think maybe. but i don't know. what happened in the cab. *Orange in 2017. got it.

for quite some time. and i’ve never told anyone this till now. The times I’ve remembered us in the cab that night. the night he raped me. i see it like i’m in a dream. disconnected from myself. and i see me. lying on the um.........the long seat. and him on me...........

i know something happened in that cab. and i know it wasn’t good. If he was on me. and since i was drunk. and kissing me. then. that’s not good. that doesn’t seem. right. he wouldn’t’ve had my consent to kiss me i don’t think. and this was before, we went back to my apt. and he raped me.

yeah. a drunk yes is a sober no even when not spoken.

i know. The kissing thing wasn’t rape i know that much. i’m not sure..........if it was. sexual assault or harrassment. all i know is...........

ok. but here’s what i do know:

-i was drunk

-that something happened in that cab

-according to my memory he kissed me in the cab while I was very drunk. and remembering..........the other part. is like i’m in a dream. disconnected. ‘the other part’. is. him on me.........we were both uh cl**hed.

oh...........i......

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there are no words.