oh god........alcohol rape. in 2017. got it.

So the last time i was raped i was drunk. i’d gone to the bar gotten really drunk we’d gone back to my apt. and he’d..........yeah. i know. 2 of my friends bought me a drink i think maybe i bought myself one [not that i remember this] and he.........maybe.........maybe he did buy me one.

anyway so i was just on the safe house denver website. and it has this myth vs. fact thing. and one of the things is something about how alcohol is used to control the person who was/is being raped.

oh.............god.

and i know something happened in that cab in the cab from the bar back to my apt. something physical/and maybe sexual........for some reason in my memory i see it as being an orange van type. and the cab driver being hispanic. but then. since something did happen in that cab............then why..........wouldn’t the cab driver have done anything about it........ or maybe he did and i just have no memory of it. um.

that’s the first time i’ve written about the cab thing. in detal.

btw. here’s the website: https://www.safehousecenter.org/wp-content/uploads/MCEDSV_Survivors_Handbook_PublicPDF.pdf

oh.............