well. i feel stuck *Con./TA in 2017. got it.

well. i feel stuck.

my progress. am i making, progress? i don’t know. maybe? i’m here and i haven’t. had a drink so. at least that part hasn’t gotten worse. [and actually. i’ve read that for people w/ BIs one drink is like 6 so........yeah think i’ll wait on that.].

actually. my sense of location is.better yeah um yesterday when i...............went out..........i took my photo-word directions w/ me. if i did panic and get lost. didn’t have to look at them once. i’ll ask myself ‘do you know where you are?’ but if i think too much about it then.i’ll panic so. yeah.

i don’t know. yesterday i felt normal untill last night. when wow something came over me. the pain [physical] started when i was at............the cafe. w/ mermaids. [starbucks. not like w/ actual mermaids.].

my depression however. has not gotten better.

ok so this is interesting. apparently. another symptom of BIs is:

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Suspicious, paranoid thoughts regarding the actions of others’ from: https://www.unitedpsychological.com/articles/add-plus/symptoms-traumatic-brain-injury

and also:

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Increased emotional sensitivity and fragility despite a hard shell on the outside’ oh that’s. interesting as i’m already a sens. person. hm ok.

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Sundowner’s syndrome, things become worse at night’ > huh. ‘worse at night’ yes. not only sernios have sundown..........that. seniors*. hm........

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Rigid thinking, difficulty thinking in a flexible manner leads to becoming stuck or perseveration’ > already like that but ok.

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Daily fatigue due to energy needed to get through the day’ > omygod yes. it’s just like w/ depression.

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Disorientation, confusion and emotional outbursts that are not remembered’ > oh. ok.

‘loss of inhibition’ so. ok basically. inhibition is shyness/being self conscious. and being um. timid.

oh............oh um wow.