the reason i didn't get checked out. *Con./TA in 2017. got it.

yes. i know. i should’ve. it’s not my fave thing either. but:

1. fear of not being believed. had i and had the um scans come back fine. no. i know my brain isn’t fine. being like ‘well i’ma go cause i know something happened’ and after however much time the scans come back and everything’s ‘fine’. no when i know damn well it’s not. [actually. fear of not being believed is a reason a lot of people don’t report rape.]. people know when something’s happened to their body/mind [er brain i guess.]. they don’t always ‘need’ to get checked out in order to know this.

2. privacy

3. trust

and 4. that would be life, interrupted. and. i don’t do that. [ok so.........anxiety. and again. the ‘have to’/compulsion/perfection thing.].