I Just Did A Stupid Thing in meh...

I don’t want to sabotage anything and I just may have done that with a feeble attempt to keep a friend that really don’t give a shit about my feelings.

So, last night Scott and I had a great long conversation, catching up because it’s been a long time since we’ve verbally connected with each other. He told me he was seeing someone. This would be the same someone I saw him with in passing last month. I am truly happy for him. He said they were vibing well and things are great. It’s someone that I know, but not very well, but RJ knows well and they went to school together.

In my desperate need to see about my “friendship” cause Im feeling forsaken and left out, I told RJ that they were seeing each other. Now RJ is pondering whether or not she should speak with her about his possesiveness and that little HPV issue he had going on. He was trying to cultivate a friends with benefits situation with RJ and how he was when she rebuffed him.

Now my selfish ass is over here doing damage control all because I want a friend who clearly has no regard for me. If RJ says something to her, and she goes back to have a conversation with him, that’s going to lead back to me because how else would RJ know they were seeing each other? I am the common/weakest link. Goodbye to another friend.

FUUUUUUUUCK I SHOULDN’T HAVE SAID ANYTHING!!

I deserve to be friendless.

Let me go wash my kitchen. Should have been doing that anyway.