so. i made art again. and. in 2017. got it.

if anyone’s going to be dismissive about my current situation or ignorant then........ok. i’ll stop.

this is from.......um. yesterday actually:

so. i made art again. i um produced it. and i’m embarassed about it. bc. it’s so. incredibly close to how i feel right now.

1. a circle w/ red lines. to represent a circus tent.

2. 2 different colored eyes. bowie. also............my own......eye........stuff

3. lightning bolt. bowie.

4. dents in...............i can’t finish in where. bc. it scares me and it’s real.

so. yeah. this is my life now. i’m. the person who had a concussion 8 days ago. [well 9 now.]. i’m. the person who looks a little bit different. i’m. the person whose eyes don’t move. i’ve accepted it but. i don’t like it.

yeah this is. this is me.

I actually within the last few mins. emailed a good friend of mine ca guy [evan] saying not to call but I need to talk. i have no idea when he’ll get that but i need to get this out of me. i’ma keep blogging. even if i don’t say a lot. the worst thing to do. w/ depression. is nothing is not talking about it in some way. so. this is my way.

i’m the person. who looks in the mirror and sees the bruises on her back. [not abuse by the way.].

yeah. this is me.