well. i feel like a fraud. *NI/the fall* in 2017. got it.

well. i feel like a fraud. like i shouldn’t be talking about this. like others have it ‘so much worse’ when it comes to.falls. like the guy in um.........’lords of dogtown’. [that was a sad movie.]. like. it’s not that bad cause i’m physically able to do things.

others. who haven’t been through this. who haven’t gotten cncusions. who don’t have um........PCS. who don’t have to actually um. consciously think. about how to do things. they don’t know how lucky they are. and, i was one of those people and. i’m not really proud of that fact. untill. it happened to me. and then it’s like oh.wow. it’s like w/ rape.

we take our brains, and bodies [i was almost going to put ‘corps’. it’s french for ‘body’] for granted some of us.

till it happens to you. lady gaga. yeah.

i never really understood. cncusions, before this but i was never like.a jerk about it. i just, didn’t get it. and. now i do. and believe me i’m not plannin on gettin another one that’s why i’m not drinkin right now. or other. [well most people don’t ‘plan’ to get one.].

yeah um. wow.

sure. yes sure others do, have it ‘so much worse’ but how is that card helping? that’s, ignoring the problem. it’s my situation and my pain and my head. it’s like. personalised, in that way.