Dear Agony in Every day scata

Breaking Benjamin

11:59 am

I slept till about 9:30 today. I hate sleeping in, but I think I really needed it. I don’t have that healing sleep that I’m supposed to get.

I don’t feel well today. The weather is making my fibro flare, my internal thermostat is fucked up (hot, freezing, hot, freezing) I have a sore throat and my nose won’t stop running. So I turned on my salt lamp and put Thieves oil in the diffuser. I’ll probably have soup for supper tonight, I just don’t know what kind. I don’t have chicken nood.. hm maybe I do. I should go check. Well, I have a can, but it’s the nasty cheap stuff. I should add that to my disaster supplies. I know I have cream of chicken, Ramen, and fake miso. Well, it’s not fake, it’s dehydrated. Quite yummy, actually.

No vitamin C, so I took a multi vitamin (just got them) and I had one dose left of the Immpower stuff that Client #1 gave me. I wish I could afford to get more of that, but it’s damn expensive. I don’t know why I had a dose left, but maybe it will help. I really need to save up some money to get some different stuff that I should be taking. If it works for him, it might work for me. I mean, the guy is 78 and looks 50 something, and still runs around fixing stuff and everything. The guy has more energy than I have! Oh. I should mix up some of that instant drink stuff so I can add a dose of the mineral stuff he gave me, too. I need to start doing that every day. When I was making my juice I was really good about adding it, but I haven’t been making it because I can’t afford it. Stupid how expensive fruit and veggies are. I know it’s off season, but still.

I’m rambling… I’ll be back later.

5:24 pm It went from 60 this morning, to … it’s 27 right now. And I wonder why I hurt so bad.

I’m in a really pissed off mood. Multiple reasons. And I really want to vent about them but I’ll get in trouble if I do. So I won’t. I’ll keep my mouth shut.

I did find out that I can lift a heavy bag of dog food into my good arm by putting my foot underneath it, then squatting and getting my arm underneath. I was even able to dump it into the bin without making a mess.

But I couldn’t feed myself the soup I made lol

I really need chopped onion. I’m wary of trying to do it right handed, but I guess I’ll give it a go. If I cut myself so be it. I can’t seem to grip anything with my left hand without extreme pain, so I don’t know how the onion thing is going to work. When opening jars or whatever I stick the jar between my left arm and my body to hold it and unscrew the cap with my right hand. lol I can’t hold an onion like that, can I.

I guess the only way to find out is to do it.

See ya.