My sexuality... in Ramblings of a stranger..

Constantly confuses me..

It’s up and down. I wanna commit to Drill Sargent. But sex isn’t the best.. So then I find myself making wrong decisions…

We aren’t in a relationship. However, I feel awful. I am opening up more about my needs. Before I make any rash decisions… I’m gonna give it my all.

Half of me wants him. That half of me wants to make him happy and be all that he desires… The other half knows I’m no good for anyone.. And I’m admitting failure before it has even happened..

Idk. I need clear boundaries and roles… It leaves me less room for confusion..