Mothernature... in Ramblings of a stranger..

I can’t stand being a girl sometimes.
Fuck Mother Nature.

I feel so hormonal. I feel so down. Shit is like an out of body experience.

Charlee will be 1 tomorrow!! I seriously can not believe a year has gone by. She is absolutely amazing. She is extremely brilliant. I didn’t expect this year to turn out the way that it did, but it wasn’t terrible. I am blessed and thankful for her. She has changed my mind and outlook like nothing ever has before.

Things with Drill Sargent are going well. I’m hormonal and needy today, so this day doesn’t count.. But it is crazy how 180 we have come. I think we have talked ourselves into being exclusive.. However there are no titles or labels yet. I’ve been so anti that shit for years.. And with him, I find myself being down it hasn’t happened YET. Though, I know I’ll fuck it up somehow. He is the first guy since my ex husband that I’ve wanted to make happy. I want to do things I know he likes. I wanna make his favorite foods. I wanna rub his back. I wanna be his naughty, little minx and shit. It’s weird…

It’s like the men around me sense I’m happy though, and they’re determined to try and help fuck it up. I’ve been asked out more this last month than I have all year… And after I make it exclusive with Drill Sargent.. My “ex” (is that’s what we are calling him) whom I dated briefly during my celibate days has made an appearance as well.

I don’t know. Life is weird. People are even more weird. I’m over writing this now.