Untitled covers it. in Ramblings of a stranger..

Oh, gosh. It’s been so long since I’ve last been on here. There are so many changes to the site… I’ve got some learning to do lol.

I don’t know where I left off at, and I don’t wanna catch up and read at the moment. I’ve been considering coming back for so long, but sometimes I’m no good with words. My life now has it’s ups and downs I guess.

I’ll attempt a recap, but I don’t have any long periods of free time. I’ve already come back to writing this twice lol. Third time will be the charm.

***month and a half later 😂😂

I’m feeling down and out about my life right now. Don’t even wanna vent about everyone and everything because ew just fuck it.

I’m tired of feeling sorry for myself. I’m tired of having no faith or hope. I’m tired of feeling alone and by myself. I’m tired of feeling stuck. Tired of feeling like I have no one backing me in my corner. I’m tried of feeling like a burden. Most of all, though, right now.. I’m tired of people.

The only people I like are my babies.. And with feeling in such a rut.. I’m not even any good to them. This hopelessness and depression is fucking crippling sometimes. And no one around me is any wiser to it.

I’m the one with all the answers. I’m the one that is responsible for everything. I’m the one with pressure and shit coming at me from every angle. Gah this was pointless and stupid.

I want to be surrounded by people who love and support me. I fucking wish I knew how to achieve all this shit I want in life.

Over writing out all this for now. I’m gonna try to gather my thoughts, and maybe I can go in more detail. Some advice and direction from a nonjudgmental place would be great!!