I’ll just stay to myself in Come Down

At least I’ll try, if I can’t be nice. He let me try something new today. Although I think I’ll still want to hit the oil burner.

After what happened last night (this morning) I’m just frustrated because I swear t was her that called…

Or I’m really more fucked up than being bipolar.

Makes me wonder if he’s confused and can’t control himself or I’m really being played for something.

Plus he’ll be busy painting shoes and whatever else after I fall asleep…

I just don’t know what I benefit from. I’m not entertaining. Not even on this pill. Maybe because I’m so full of ice and the dopamine is gone… all burned out.

I don’t really get that high now. I gotta stop for at least a week probably for me to feel it again.

I don’t know why he’d tell me what he says but feels otherwise… or something

Last updated December 14, 2017