My Smile Betrays Me in meh...

Being a being of the zodiac tribe of Cancer, I don’t really mean to be the hard outside/Twinkie soft inside our kind says we are.

But I am…

I give people a hard time sometimes.
I act like a hard ass and I often look mean.
I know I do. I think I invented resting bitch face before it had a moniker.
And I act like I don’t play games with people and I don’t go for that shit, and sometimes I am that person, but mostly…

Like, I complain all the time about the members and people that call me with stupid questions. Sometimes, my voice betrays my actually annoyance with people.

Caller: “Yes. I’m coming to the event tonight and I wonder if the fire that’s happening will cause it to close?”
(mind you, the fire, while kind of in the neighborhood, is not close enough to cause problems)
Me: “No ma’am. The event will still go on.”

Caller: “Oh. Will there be extra security?”

Me: (audible pause) “Yes (said with an annoyed emphasis on the “y”)”

Caller: (paused because I had the audacity to be annoyed with her question) “I just wanted to be sure. Just trying to be cautious because of car jackings.”

Me: “I understand. We always have extra security at events.”

We then said our goodbyes and I hung up. I’ve never heard of a car jacking that took place on our lot. A break in a long time ago, but never a car jacking. Our security is on it. But it’s people like that who make me ill. I’m not saying be cautious, but if you have to ask questions about everything every time you’re going out or going somewhere, then stay your ass at home. I think these things are an insult. It’s a sign of the times, but it’s an insult.

Then on the opposite end of the spectrum…I’m deep in work. Hurting my neck, turning my head between my computers. I hate to be interrupted and the phone rings with people asking stupid shit. The phone will ring and before I answer the phone, I almost always roll my eyes, look at the phone and ask WTF you want??, or grunt some audible displeasure and I answer the phone with a smile in my voice but a frown on my face. I halfway expect the person on the other end to be attitudinal. Then we speak, I help and I’m smiling and talking and answering questions and then we disconnect the call.

I’m a chump. I’m not hard at all. Life just added another layer to my crab shell and colored it cynical, but I’m still nice and Twinkie soft on the inside. Which, now that I think about it…The cream filling in Twinkies has a component that you find in plaster. So I don’t know how soft that is.

man I haven’t had a one in forever. I kind of miss them. Was my favorite hostess snack, along with a big cup of milk.

Dah well..

I’m soft damnit. LOL

Have a great day.

Kindest regards,
Sister