Mistake... in Fresh Start...

Last night was a total mistake. I was drunk and texted F and he actually responded so then I called him and at first it was ok… but it quickly escalated and ended with him mad and swearing and me crying.

I am pretty sure that the only reason he pulled away from me is bc the guys at work were teasing him mercilessly. And I know it sucked, but if he’d just told them to shut the fuck up and mind their own business it probably wouldn’t have been as bad. I don’t remember everything said last night, but when I told him that if we saw each other it was no one at works business and he said something along the lines of “But they’d see me happy and just know”… so you’re gonna let other people keep you from being happy? It makes me really sad to think what we could have had.