only to wake up in the morning and find out. oh........ in yes i'm aware it's 2016.

so when i’m at my mom’s when i wake up after i get out of bed and all that i say hi to stevie. i’m so used to him being.there and i didn’t realise how much a big part of our my life he was untill he.wasn’t, anymore.

yeah but only to wake up in the morning and find out.oh.........you’re.not there. he’s, not there. i keep expecting him to be certain places like in the living room by the piano or on his carpet in the kitchen. um this morning. i left the bathroom door slightl closed. cause that’s what we’d do when he was here.

and i still.look at the places in my mom’s house he was, and smile.

the house is quieter emptier. like when you’re sitting next to someone and they get up and their seat’s now been left vacated. oh........that feeling exactly. my parents have lived in that house for oh 20 yrs. at least. i guess. this iis how it was before we got him but i don’t remember that too vividly at all. [i was 15 when we got him. and he lived 15 yrs.].

i remember, the things i used to say to him and i still want to even though he’s......... and maybe that’s weird i don’t know.

there are a lot of people. who’d let their dog/cat/lizard/other, pet go, naturally. and i get it. yeah but at what cost though?