Real shit. What is my life? in 2017

I need it. To vent. To complain. To release.

Nothing to vent on right now. Just some thoughts.
I don’t know if I’ve said this hear yet or not, I figure I haven’t tho considering how I feel about it.
Here goes
Not that into photography anymore. Ok that’s a lie, I’m very much into it, who isn’t? I’m just not sure if I wanna keep doing it. I know it seems stupid and maybe it’s just because of the place I’m in right now in life… but it’s just not something I’m super passionate about anymore

When I book sessions now, I get bummed out. Maybe it’s becuse I’d much rather stay home and hang out with Chris and the kids or maybe I’m just over it. I make a killing at it guys, seems retarded to want out but maybe even just a little break?

The other day while I was working at Tim Hortons, I knew u had a fall session lined up for me after work, and it legit ruined my day. I kept thinking about it and wonder how I could cancel it or somehow make it rain so that I wouldn’t have to go. And it’s not like I’m no good at it and have any reason to have this anxiety prior, so it’s weird.

I am always ok while doing the session and always pleased with the outcome. So what gives??? Why am I feeling this way? I can’t figure it out.

But when I think of getting a new camera I get excited? Or when I see something beautiful I get my phone out for a photo… it’s still something I love but also something I dread. I honestly need opinions and maybe some advice because those of you who’ve followed me since opendiary, know that I’ve strived to be where I am right now. Which is at a place where I legit don’t have to push for clients, I sit back and let them come to me. This photography dream of mine has come true and now I don’t want it.

What the fuck is up with that?

Kristen<3