Day 3 in Out in the Open

Today was much easier. I worked though, so it kept my mind off of him. Someone called me from a number I didn’t recognize. I was playing a game on my phone so my first reaction was to cancel the call. No idea if it was him or not. So naturally I obsessed over it all day.
I can’t really tell how I am feeling about blocking him out of my life. I was aching the last two days. Today I am just kind of numb. Usually the third day is easy. It’s the fourth that is the worst. I shall see how I do tomorrow.
I have still got him blocked on What’sapp. I haven’t heard from him by email, text or call. (if that call was him he didn’t leave a message). So I keep on keeping on. If he truly wants me in anyway he’ll make contact. If he doesn’t, he won’t. Simple as that. It no longer matters what I want. If he never contacts me again, I will miss him so incredibly much. However, I won’t miss the days of being ignored, the times he makes plans and then breaks them, or the lies.
I remember the last time he went away. It was for a year. I did find happiness again. Yes, I secretly hoped he’d come back some day, but it wasn’t very hard by the end.
I’ll be ok. I’m going to be fine.
I’m still missing him though.