Fat in Public

I’m so sick of crying about being fat and then eating shit.

I will do well for several weeks, with no positive results, and then I fail and eat everything and anything that comes across my path.

This kind of eating happens for a week or so and then I’ll start all over. I inevitably end up in tears again, hating myself, but unable to change.

I can’t even exclaim ‘no more!’ because I know it’s not true. Something has to give, though, because I’m not getting any younger and if all this horrible eating and horrible self image continues I may just drive myself to the loony bin.