Sociopathy in Riverdale

Sociopathy

So yesterday I was at my therapists and we were talking about trauma.

She lent me this book on child trauma. It was really interesting because it goes into case studies that are real about severe child trauma.

One of them was it guess you could say about maybe a sociopath?

It was about this 16 year old boy who was in jail for murdering and raping two young girls.

The psychologist who wrote the book had to go in and do an assessment of the boy. Find out what motivated him to do it, why he was the way he was.

He interviewed the family and the family seemed healthy suportive and bewildered by what happened. There had been no prior arrests on either side of the family and nothing that stood out. There was a older son and he was employed and healthy and had no arrests or anything.

Except the mother. During the interview he noticed that the other son and the father kept talking for her. He noticed she didn't seem to know what was going on really.

But eventually it came out that when the first son was born there was more people around to help the mother who seemed to have an intellectual issue and got overwhelmed easily. Her husband had a good job at that time and things were more stable.

But by the time the second child was born the father had lost his job they had to move and the mother became isolated from everything and didn't have anyone to turn to for help. Her second child would scream and cry and she wouldn't hold the baby or know what to do apparently. And she would often leave the second baby alone crying and screaming while she took the first baby on walks.

Eventually the second child realized that his screaming and crying wouldn't do anything and the part of the brain where empathy develops didn't develop properly.

He went on to say that he has had many many other cases where similar cases has happened and even where the child was maliciously abused and may have grew up being awkward lonely and lacking in social skills but not to the point of becoming a murderor.

He described that pretty much what happened was a butterfly effect. That timing is everything. All early interventions were intended for good but just exasburated the situation. He was placed in a class with other children with distruptive behaviours and the class was large so didn't garuntee any special attention. As well as at every cross road the he choose to go down a darker path as well. Combined with the fact that he had been drinking and his darker impulses came out.

It's just interesting how timing is everything.

Like it mentioned about how many famous soccer stars are born at the start of the year and because of the age cut offs the kids at the start of the year are often stronger more skilled.

It really gets you thinking about how many things we really never had a chance at being or doing.

I am realizing that I would say a lot of things have to do with opportunity and timing and circumstances.

Of course we shouldn't stop trying but there are just some things that are out of our hands and some things that were never meant to be.

It gives a good take on sociopathy.

Anyways it's the weekend and I hate the weekends. Because I am lonely mostly, everywhere is packed and I don't have anything scheduled to do on the weekends.

I miss O for that reason he was companionship. He was someone I could share news with etc. even if he was an asshole at the end. I didn't fully know that. It's hard to find someone from the ground up now. Someone who knows you you connect with, understands and doesn't judge, you don't have to explain everything to them it's just understood.

With this program at least I can feel that with the people I am with, because we are all going through the same things. There's not much I have to hide, lie or feel like i have to impress anyone. There is hardly any mask I have to wear. I don't wanna get too too close to anyone yet though because I don't want to jepordize the course. Just in case. I don't know if that's me just worrying too much or what.

I watched Romy and Michelles High School reunion last night and finished watching it this morning. I love that movie. My ten year high school reunion would be in two years so it's good to know that if I want to go I would have that much time to establish a life for myself.

I don't have this huge nostalgia for high school really. I think anyone who thinks those are the best years of your life, I feel kind of sorry for you because there is more to life than that. Your life should be just be beginning. It's kind of an awkward age really. I hope one of my best years can be my thirties as my twenties were kind of a shit show.

I'm bored I don't know what I will do today I am thinking of cooking something. Maybe when I get less full from breakfast I can think about what I want to cook and eat.