Jan.: holidays, sex in The Wonderland Years: 2010: transferred over from FOD. entries. Done.

'15th

I'm still here I've not gone anywhere. Actually that's not entirely true. I have gone places..........I've not dropped off the face of the earth.

Hmmmm.........my Christmas was. busy. Although I don't usually do much of anything, so. I spent time w/ Kate, Evan, my dad's mom and her husband [John]. My aunt Cindy. Michael.

Evan, Kate and I picke d out a tree and decorated it, listening to some of the mix Michael had given me back in October. Evan really liked the Louis Prima number. It was easier, having them at the parents', being that I never go there because, well. as said. We went to Noodles & Co over the break. Even thought I'm not in school anymore, I still think of the holiday season as "the break".

For the holidays I got:

*a scarf, earrings and 'For Whom The Bell Tolls' from my dad

*a really cool animal photography book from Kate, entitled 'Creatures'. It's nowmy coffee-table book

*Glee, Volume 1 from my mom. I love 'Glee'

ohhhhhhhhhh.........from my dad's mom Kate and I each got these fabric angels that decorated her house in Littleton every Christmas. It was so beautiful! I love stuff like that.........when you can tell that the person's put a lot of thought into the gift.

I gave my grandparents muffins, cornbread and blueberry; everyone likes free food, [I know I do] and I didn't have to figure out what to give each person individually.

I gave my dad's mom, and my parents and Kate poetry, and lotion, Advil, Dove and chocolate for stocking stuffers, which I did last year as well. I gave my mom socks and my dad a book on Einstein, which he really liked. He likes science and grew up w/ science fiction.

Einstein was brilliant.

My aunt Cindy, parents, Kate, Evan and I went over to my mom's parents' place for Christmas. We had........salad, cabbage, some kind of meat and rolls. Cindy made the cabbage; it was really good. I had that, and rolls. That was Christmas Eve.

On Christmas, Kate picked me up and we went to the parents', where we unwrapped gifts and watched the Disney Christmas parade. Then we went over to my grandmother's [my dad's mom's] new place, which is downtown. It's a senior citizens' residence, very similar to the one I volunteered at last year, but fancier. It's a lot smaller then her previous house. But she likes it.......she misses her house, however. It's so weird, not going there anymore. We had lunch. I had really good mashed potatos and vegetables.'

______________________________________________________________________________ '18th

over the break Kate dropped by, after she, Evan and I had gone out to eat. I casually mentioned that I wanted kids.

Well.

She doesn't want me having sex. I told her I have condoms.......and I don't think tha t just because I now have them doesn't mean I can go out and have sex.

Well evidently, having condoms isn't enough. Oh no. She went out and got me Plan B from the drugstore.

wow.

Oh but I can drink/smoke, which could potentially kill anyone?..........uh. huh.

She thinks I'm too trusting...........that I'll get "taken advantage of" again. Oh, I'M too trusting??

I don't worry about her because I know she'll be careful. Look if, for instance, she decides to shoot up [again], I won't like it but I'm sure as hell not going to tell her not to.

It's not that I don't care; I do. It's that, I let people make their own mistakes.........And, I hate being told what to do/not do.

I'm more worried about someone being careful, in regards to cutting/drinking and whatnot.'

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'Hm.

So, Saturday, I was plannin to get together w/ a friend of mine.

I thought, she'd gotten to Safeway via bus and was waitin there for who knows how long. We were meant to meet up at 11 [a.m.]; that day, untill around 5, neither of us had phoned the other.

I'd slept all day.

So, at 11 I was lying on my floor thinking 'oh I hope she's not stuck there waiting' ..............I felt really bad.

Well. Apparently that's not what happened.

She cancalled on me via Facebook............being that she knows I'm not a phone person.

However...............yes there's a 'however'.

She cancelled like, that day. Or Friday. I...........think. I've not read it yet, just skimmed the first line.

If yall are gonna cancel on me I'd like for it to be at least 24 hrs in adance [which, might've happened ..........dinno, being that, as stated] so that I can make plans. Or not.

Although I did get together w/ some other friends, so.'